thursday

Hi
did everyone have a good anzac day. ahhhhh i'm having to block out the conversation happening at work, about how the people in the countries where everyone is starving need to sort their shit out basically and stop expecting handouts cuz we can't keep giving them money.
Which was a conversation initiated by my boss saying i should have kids to 'keep the human race alive' and so that someone would visit me in old folks home.
save me.
or kill me.
or something.

I had a DELIGHTFUL anzac day. respec' all da boys who fought. it can't've been easy. infact i reckon thats the worst thing a person could have to go through. REspec' boys. you were brave and you served your country I respect you. we wo'nt forget.

I slept in. and then lay in bed working out how to do a powerpoint on my lappy, using the 'directive' layout and the topic 'how to become an actualised being'. very fun indeed.

til my beautiful boy turned up to come climb in with me for very i missed you huggles and kisses and smiles and giggles. all goodness.

adri popped over, he was meant to be coming surfing but couldn't, looked really drained. I gave him mushroom pills (of the non-hallucinagenic sort!), herbs and a back rub and sent him on his way. P and I boiled eggs and made sammies and racked up and shwoosh! were away!

I made us go to piha. maybe that wasn't the wisest. P's call was bethells. but i MISS piha. so piha it was.
Right on the corner where you turn to go to north (?) piha there was a parade with old vets adn the police and lotsa people and bagpipes and some kids with skateboards and lotsa old hippies. a right piha raggamuffin group. we turned down the radio and was like: yeah. respec.

It's like, 2-3 with some 3-4 and kinda dumping out the back, lotsa white, looks like a nice lefthander that one over by lions rock, and some nice small waves right in the middle. we suit up and shoot out. P goes out back. i do'nt. i do'nt think i can to be honest. i've lost heapsa strenght. grrrr it bugs the hell out of me.

spend like an hour paddling round, the wave is elusive. everytime you paddle to where the wave WAS it's shifted. this is so damn true of piha. goddam piha. like a woman on the rag. so changeable and unreasonable. but i still love'r.

Boy came back in a few times to hang w me, and take me out with him, but i can't get out, maybe i could've, i'm not really into it, so watch Boy paddle on out again. brave boy.

i try for the shore break but the tides not high enough and it' speople galore. i nearly cut the heads off two boys when my board shoots out from under me at the end of my ride. that was my best ride actually, cept for the ending. which was pretty funny to be honest cuz they both go
BIG WIDE EYES
DUCK
and disappear into the waves to miss it. we all come up grinning and me going: SHIT! SHIT!
you alright?! they don't seem to mind.

tired as. head in. p's already in. we eat eggs adn sammies and kiss and canoodle in the sand. his mate alex has turned up but we're so oblivious to company. poor bugger. The suns lost alot of its heat cuz it's autumn. it's kinda nice. milky. bright.

Schirin, nic, amy and kim walk past. piha girls. they're just heading out. so we suit up and go back in. i'm too tired though really. don't last long. lose sight of p and he heads out back. ahhhh, my boy. sorry. smitten.

I lie on my tummy for a bit just looking and feeling the water and the beach then head in. rinse, dry, dress, pack the boards up and go sit on the beach and wait to see him come walking out of the surf, dripping, seaclean, tired, strong, board under arm. something about that vision gets me everytime.
Dressed and in the car we hooooon back to town and miss the first six minutes of 300. but WHAT A MOVIE. highly recommended. gladiator meets sin city. all glory and nobility and honour and bravery, passion treason and warriors! i think people think it's a boy movie, but nah man, it's fantastical the way crouching tiger hidden dragon was. go see it. think i'm going to see it twice.

Wasn't it hot last night? i woke up several times casting off blankets and jumpers and opening the window.
this thursday feels like a monday. i'm sleepy. more days off!
i graduate tomorrow.
life is a whirlwind. i'm in a bubble of happiness bumping along on a rainbow ride.

:)